On this spring morning, with my cat by my side, I began my usual ritual of talking myself into facing another day. Yet, I felt lighter that day. Something was different. I viewed a smile in my mirror and felt an urge to scream without fright. Initially, I cautioned myself to hide my feelings; then, …
Dear Survivors: Many people told me that one day I would feel unlivable guilt for what I did or didn’t do for my mother. On November 23, 2020, those words were tested. Yet, guilt is the one emotion that I do not feel. Part of me felt relief, the other anger, and I discovered that …
My Psychotic Narcissistic Mother Will Never Abuse Me Again! Read More »
What could have made me want to give up on living? What gave me hope? What helped me discover how to laugh, cry, and experience fear without failure? No longer do I carry the tightness of constant wonderings of what I am doing wrong, or who may attack me next. You guessed correctly, “Trauma Recovery” …
Dogs represent all that is good in relationships. They love and nurture those that they care about without strings attached. A mother dog loves her babies with that same unconditional love. Have you ever watched a dog nurture its young? They allow the puppy to venture out on its own until danger approaches They block …
I want to offer a special thank you to Roberta Bardin for writing her story of survival and sharing her letter to her abuser that she never sent to become a part of our “Abuse me. Why?” campaign to educate the public regarding abuse issues. These survivor stories and different forms of art are being publicized to help other …
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While searching for your sanity, you only find comfort when alone because confusion and fear of others seem to be taking over your reality. For some reason you have begun to feel the need to examine why you exist, making you feel as if you should give up because nothing you do or say is …
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From the heart of this Alienated Parent! When I woke up this morning, I cried as I looked out of my window because I saw the remains of another storm. I also cried because the storm had not washed away my pain. Then I turned away from the dying rain and winds, to see that …
It was a beautiful day, which I expected to be a wonderful one until I stopped for coffee and overheard an older woman talking about her daughter. All she seemed to have to say about her daughter was how cruel she was to leave her in such desperate need of someone to help her with …
No, it can’t be. Not another cold. I have been sick for weeks. My body feels like it is falling apart. What is wrong with me, they tell me that I am a survivor. There are days when I don’t feel steady on my feet. Sometimes even a bit dizzy. Not to mention the …
Yesterday, or should I admit that during the last week or so, I fell back into the trap formed by the words of my abusers. I kept hearing, “No matter what you do, failure is the only thing you’re good for.” Without dissociation continuing to protect me, I am now able to experience feelings. So …